farmer life~

Hi peeps, as promise photos!! call me lazy bum..... I'll simply let the pictures do the talking~ hohoho...
i went Cameron trip last month with my parents, X and relatives:

I'm so sway..kanna a air-con dripping seat... =(

Last station on our last day~ waterfall~

Me and X....

the whole group of us.......

ME!!!!! and our hotel...love it...

Daddy... trying to be some hokkien singer.. chen lei? if im not wrong..haha...

strawberry farm....me and X went climbing and plucking strawberries back...unfortunately all spoilt when we are back...

Carrots~ cute.....because they have long stem just like what bugs bunny love to it...

X suitable to have dreadlocks? lol...

xiu xiu...daddy peeing in public....

daddy reminiscing...........

me and mumi....

guess what it is this??!?!?! - green rose~

me and X!!!

us in boh tea factory with the breathtaking view~

daddy trying to "push" the mountain~

saw this retro looking taxi at BOH tea factory

us~

daddy and mumi....nice hor.....i take one loh...

X trying to act like the bee...cute hor...

me....i love this pic....

so lovey dovey....

we book the whole bus~

heheh..... want to see more of the photos? look into my facebook~ wahahahaha........ tsk tsk....

the overall trip was average.... but i love my hotel..its called "heritage hotel". There are 2 wing, new and old. We stayed in the new wing! the environment as well as the furnitures was damned nice. I love it. The architect is like a countryside look, in there i don't feel like i'm at malaysia at all.....some of their design are nice..even in toilets. i took a couple of pictures of the furnitures....interior and etc...... hmmmmm...holiday..but still work mind....

that's all....update soon~
cya

Testing testing 123

Hi people... Finally blogging..whoopee... Updates is I finally got my iPhone to replace my lg crystal.. To some people it might not be an update.. But yea iPhone 4...

Nice to use... Once I get this phone, I doubt I will change to other type of phone.. Cause i'm simply addicted to the usability of Apple's iPhone.. Even now I'm blogging with it...

I can do most of the things with the use and applications of an iPhone... I can survive now without my laptop at home!!!! That's how great it is when people now will have to surf the net all day long~ but I can just do it with my phone.. Even chatting with my girlfriend when she is at the other end of the globe..

That is it!!!! I'm actually just testing the new app I downloaded... And yes!! It's working fine...

Will load picture updates in my next blog~ cya

5 days...........

It's a sad week....

all started from sat...as usual, i called my parents when i wake up and don't see them home...they were in the hospital accompanying my grandpa to see doctor....

I thought it was just a normal routine as sometimes my grandpa goes to hospital to see doctor...

when i came back at night....my mum wasn't home...and i still thought it was normal...until my daddy called me in his room and said: " tomorrow wake up please go to the hospital to see ah gong...he is leaving us soon...he fainted at home and when into coma lying in the ICU...doctor revived his heartbeat and told us to be prepared........"

i'm so sad....really sad and worried that i could not sleep....canceled all the plan i have and prepared myself....suddenly in a mist, i heard daddy speaking to someone on the phone....for a moment i thought everything was over...ah gong woke up....

BUT...........................

daddy came in my room and said:" prepare yourselves and wait for my call, i'm going hospital now!!! ah gong had passed away..........."
my tears burst out......

when was the last time i saw him? when was the last time i spoke to him? i missed the chance to tell him i love him..........

1st day
it was tiring......went to grandma house before dad called and found out grandma did not know anything yet...was hoping and waiting for his return....heartache
did all the traditional routines......and ah gong back
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i know nothing about the routine but i find it so heart broken...we need to be on our knees..and call for him when his body is carried back...call him like we always do........

but i couldn't....trying so hard to hold back...eyes filled with blurry vision......
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i look at him after i'm dressed for routine...and talked to him....tears just fall....

day 2 - day 3
i stayed till the next morning as much as i could...its a traditional believe...no cats..no stopping of the joss stick and oil......

day 4
chants and chants and chants and chants that lasted for hours in the night.....
till....
i accompanied grandma back home....she look at me and said:" tomorrow sending grandpa away already right?" i felt the hurt...but i can't do anything to make her feel better and nodded my head....and she asked me the same question again.....

day5
the most upset and terrible feeling for the whole funeral...
chants....
and chants....
finally the helper closes the cover of the coffin....we cried....
getting ready....
we walked him....sobbing....i held my mum....tears just wouldn't stop....
board the bus to mandai crematorium columbarium...

on the bus~

everyone was so quiet not like how it always was since i was born....i only heard sniffing sound that goes all the way through out the journey.....
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we finally reached.....it was tough for us to hold back...everyone.....cried.....when we witness the coffin pushing in.....crying out loud....calling for him even daddy say we shouldn't.....but we just can't help....i can't remember when was the last time i cried so badly......and it was also the first time i saw mummy broke down.....she hold it for the past 4 days......and finally she couldn't....everyone broke down.....
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i really don't know how well should i describe the process....because the feeling is just so......depressing.....

i'm sorry

she left....

It was a sad week for me...to overcome my best buddy leaving sg for 6 years~ its not long and not short either...we never be apart for so long ever since we met each other....

People might be saying...what for...silly...she will be back...but the issue is 我捨不得...it felt like a part of me being torn away...its that uncomfortable...that sad...that pain...

she will always sms us..."do you miss me?"

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i'll always did not really care...but now....i really really really miss you girl....i never felt that way before...unconsciously, tears rolled down again....

Yesterday night she left....so unluckily...i OT till very late...and was so worried that i might miss her...i cab from a client house back and was pissed,cursing and swearing my boss...feeling sad and worried...i couldn't imagine myself miss meeting her before she leaves...

Everything happened so fast...chatting taking pictures..and the farewell....most of us cried...most of us are worried....most of us missed her... tears couldn't stop....but the funny part is....the other 5 girls of us avoid looking at each other and even her(maybe just me)...so that we could stop crying...but..i regretted not looking at her and hugged her before she left...

She left~ how long do i need to not let tears fall...she been with us to everywhere....everywhere we go has the memories that will not be forgotten...

its like a dream when i saw her back...i still could not accept the fact that she left...............

*ps : sorry for this emotional post...but i really need a space...

dear girl: i know someday you will read this....so please take care of yourselves...must eat..stay positive always and don't let others bully you!!! remember to keep us update with photos and...don't forget the memories with us..either good or bad...lastly....email me!!!! skype!!!!!

miss me?

Hello people....not been updating for awhile....

yaya i know that...

Well, i have great thoughts with my new job...not really new but the latest job...

its incredible that i felt I'm back to school learning new things. Everyday is a new day...new problems i will encounter...though i design lesser...but from this lesser bits, i learn alot greater things that aid my design...confusing?

Not really....i learn things that normal designer will not give a thought of...i feel proud...though i'm still not there yet, i know i will be there faster and better then anybody...

The thought came by after i skyped with my cousin who is also a product designer...she is 4 yrs older then me and she graduated with a degree...she is now working in china, tian jing as a trophy/award designer.........

i felt, i'm lucky to meet scott, who helped me realize/fulfil my dreams...i did not waste my money for studying something that my parents don't support..i walked through a hard way and finally i'm here doing something that i love....

and i believe....in future, there will be something that i can fulfilled.

i'm proud of myself..and i can do it.... to be a better FURNITURE DESIGNER~ =)

sounds chim...but its a strong feel....