Hello people!! =)
Last Saturday, we have had our 2nd vetting for the recital in Oschool. It was quite bad. I can't feel my team at all even for the 2nd try. Quite sad to say... And I'm not sure why I can't bring up the confidence level too.
After vetting, we continued our usual dance practice, where Carol also changed bits and pieces for the choreography. New back roll stunts... and for a moment, I gave up thinking I will not be able to do it. Because last year May actually tried and teach me but I can't do it. BUT, who knows, I quietly tried it very slowly and.... tada!! I DID IT!!! very shocking still...
** However, when try with the song, I failed...LOL..
The super duper long dance practice ended.. and while I'm bathing, I began to think about dance and me..LOL~ *very random one*
and I thought..
"If I had continued dancing since primary school (I used to be a Chinese dancer in school), how far will I be today?"
Doing all the stunts for reggae will it be easy peasy for me? Considering I'm trained on the stunts back in primary school.
Back then, we are trained to do the "bridge"..
.. from standing position to the "bridge" and walked in this pose...
Also, splits...
... In any directions.. Front or sides, slow or fast..
Will I be able to do it without any difficulties if I had continue dancing then?? and the question came back to..
"If I did not fall on my back when I'm primary 5, will I still be dancing then??"
If I do not have any back injury complication, will I still dance?? This is a question I guess I will never get an answer. And is something that I regretted very very very much. It also takes me quite a few years to come to realize either than drawing/design, dance is also my everything.
My tears dropped when my design failed or rejected and I teared too when I failed to get in recital last year. Its everything to me. When I'm happy or sad, dancing just makes me happy and forgets everything. For a few years I've built the confidence and strive to be where I am today in dance.
"LOOK~ I'm performing again after so long??!!!" YET, this happiness does not stay long.
I really really really really hope, it does not end here because I still can't give up dancing yet. PLEASE DON'T TAKE DANCE AWAY FROM ME!! At least not now...
Alright, I'm not sure what I'm writing now... probably just some messed up, random thoughts that I wanted to rant.. I've been moody these days because I've been having tough fight with myself. But at least I know, even if it is my last performance, I wanted to give my best shot and enjoy every moments of it! And no matter what, I'll try to go back dance again!!
Like the picture above,
" NO!! I MUST DANCE!!"
- signing off -
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